Hello, My name is John Menard and I am in need of help.  My life has been very crazy and I am kind of embarrassed to be doing this. I have been reading "The Secret" and I do believe in The Law of Attraction.  I am in over $100,000.00 in student loan debt. I put myself through school. I am a recovering Alcoholic and Drug Addict.  I have been clean for 20 1/2 years.  When I got clean and sober I put myself through school. I did this for my son and myself.  Now, my son is 22 years old and on his own.  I have helped my son up until recently.  I have worked my whole life. 

I worked full-time and went to school full-time to become something better.  I was the low life of the family.  Now, I have a Masters Degree in Psychology.  I am a Licensed Mental Health Counselor in Massachusetts.  I am struggling to pay my bills and clean up my debt.  I am struggling to buy a house because of my student loan debt, credit card debt, and I have a 15,000 reposession.  I use The Secret everyday with my clients.  I apply it in my life everyday.  I tell my clients all the time to read The Secret and apply it in their lives.  I read The Secret deck calendar everyday.  Today, it reads,. Laughter attracts joy, releases negativity, and leads to miraculous cures.  I keep trying to move forward and life happens.  I need new brakes on my car that is going to cost $500.00plus and I do not have the money.  I pray everyday. I have my check on the ceiling for 5 million dollars.  

I want to buy the house I am living in because the person renting it to me has been very patient. I was to buy it by now but my credit score is stopping me to buy it because of my student loans and the 15,000 repo charge off from years ago.  I really want the 5 million dollars to buy my house and pay my bills. My house is 179,000. The rest of the money I want to go to Peru to help the children.  I visited Peru two times because my spouse is from Peru. It really opened my eyes how blessed I am.  My mother-in-law died from Cancer and I went to visit and went to her funeral.  I would see children on the streets getting high from snorting glue.  They are living on the streets. They look like they have not bath in months.  That really bothered me.  I want to help the people there and I want to open a club house for the children.  I want to feed them and let them know they are ok.  

I love what I do for a job.  I just do not have enough to pay everything.  How I got here! I was at work a few weeks ago and I was writing in my Secret Journal. I was writing how grateful I am. I am truely grateful and truely blessed.  I have a job where I help people everyday.  I see 50 clients a week.  I try to make them feel a little better each and everyday.  I was reading People's magazine and I saw an article about people who give money away.  I went to this website and asked for help. I got a reply and stated they do not donate to people. They gave me this web site.  I did not have the money for t
 he $45.00 for the paypal. I do not have it now.  I am always overdrawn in my checking acct. because of all the bills I have.  I try not to worry and think positive. I pray everyday and say thank you everyday.  I do know if I get the help I need I can pay it forward.  I want to thank you for your time.