I have never done something like this before and don’t really have a clue how to go about it, so I am going to give you a little of my history – enough for you to understand where I am coming from and a little of what kind f person I am, and then I will explain what I am trying t achieve that would drive me to actually do something like this.

HISTORY

Lots of people talk about trying to save the world.  It seems to me that, looking back, not many of them actually try. 

IT’s like you line up on the starting line, and there’s not really enough room for all all tostand there – loads of noise from people talking about how important it is and what “people “ should be doing. 
Then the started pistol fires and you start running [inevitably uphill all the way, and no one told you the track has been greased before you started, but that’s ok. You can’t expect these things to be easy.

Life never was. My home and school life were both spitefully violent and beyond discussing, with physical, metal, and emotional abuse at home and at school which left me nowhere to escape to. Somehow I grew up still believing in people and believing that healing should be free for anyone who needs it.

My father forced me into the building industry - said I was too thick for anything else.  It wasn’t until my late 20’s that I escaped from his influence and got married.  Sadly, it turned out that the only thing my wife was interested in was getting a Uk passport and 2 weeks after she got it she dumped me.  Then my brother died and then my father died two weeks later.

Whatever else he was, he was still my father and the dumping, followed closely by two family deaths hit me quite hard.  

It also left me very much alone – my mother had, a few years previously, finally divorced my father and disappeared into hiding.  I didn’t at that time really know where she was and felt too ashamed of still caring about my father to find her.

This, however, gave me an opportunity to change a few things. I was working quite hard trying to pay  a mortgage designed for two incomes, but I found the time to go and study hypnotherapy – having been to one for help myself I developed an interest in the subject and ended up qualifying in hypnotherapy, counseling, psychotherapy and Nlp.

In the background, at this time, I began coming up with ideas about renewable energy and other stuff – never really thought how to put them into practice, but there they were, sitting in the background.  I left work and started a small therapy practice – just as I was beginning to break even, I met this guy who was a venture capitalist – he was Iranian – a  Sufi and [he said ] a teacher of Sufis.

Now, if you know anything about Sufism, [as i did], then you will know that their teachings are both profound and full of integrity – they are, by their teachings, very honorable, very honest and altruistic people who take a lot of effort to help others, so I though this guy would have to be ok - that I could trust him.

I helped him put together a company, with a small team of people and using my ideas he raised a considerable amount of money in the run up to Y2K.

|We traveled all over the place, speaking to various spiritual and religious people, and raised a lot of money – we managed to involve a few charities, a U.N. n.g.o. and a small [by their standards] church in America.

During this time I didn’t have time to go home much, let alone anything else – I was sleeping on his floor getting a few hours here and there and that was about it.  I wouldn’t take any money form the company because we were still trying to establish it – all I asked was that my bills be paid – mostly the mortgage.

Then got invited out to India by the bankers of Mumbai, to demonstrate a renewable energy device we had designed.

I spent a week to there with one of out team, and came back with a check for ten million pounds and a contract to build three factories.

Sadly, when we got off the plane, we fond that our honorable Sufi had done a runner with all the money. He had never actually even formed he company [we filled in the company application forms together – all of the team; we saw them put in the envelope and we al waked with him to the post box where he posted them – we thought but apparently not.  We came to the conclusion that he posted an empty envelope.

In fact, all the money was siphoned into his personal account and disappeared.

I lost what little money I still had.  I lost my business, my home, my bank accounts, my possessions and all my credibility.  I ended up living on the streets.

It broke my back and it broke my heart.  Some of the team got enough money together to take him to court – they fond me and called me as a witness – at the end of th thing, they threw me ot of the court room after I gave my testimony, because I couldn’t keep my eyes open – it was warm in the court room, the seats were comfy – not like where I was sleeping.

My mother died a little while ago. I m now living in a caravan, bought with what was left of her estate – she was never wealthy – I wish she had been, not for me but because of all people she deserved a little luxury and a few good times before she died as it is, she struggled her whole life to pay the bills, but she never gave in. Not once.

I had always hoped I would be able to provided her with at least a few good years before she died, but this was not to be.

I am still doing therapy and I till think healing should be free.  The people who come to me are the ones who can’t afford a lot of money; they give me what they can and their thanks.

I kind of gave up on saving the world as a whole – now I am trying to save just a small part of it – or rather I am trying to save some people in the hope that each of them can go on to help some more.

I am putting together a sanctuary now.

The idea is in four parts – [maybe five]:

Firstly,
I want to get a place – a piece of property with just a little land , perhaps an acre around it, where therapists and healers of every type can come when they get really drained. We do, you know.  If you sped your whole time working at healing people in pain – people who desperately need the help and support of another human being, after a while you give so much of yourself that there’s very little left and you need to recharge your batteries.
So I want to make this place where they can all come together to re charge, and to teach – to exchange skills and abilities, because the more knowledge you have, the more techniques you can use, then the better you can help the people who come to you.

The surrounding land is so that the sanctuary can grow its own veg - see in the UK especially, therapists don’t get paid a great deal – we are more or less outsiders and going for therapy is not thought of the way it is in America.  Here it’s like a stigma – a ark of failure and weakness if you go to a therapist so we don’t make that much money, we do it because we care –p because we want to make a difference.

My mother was a really keen gardener and she grew all her own veg.  As I said, she was a healer and never ever worked for money. She was about 5 foot 1 inch tall and at one time actually took a job lifting sacks of potatoes onto lories to pay the bills [she was in her late fifties at the time, had a hiatus hernia and chronic varicose veins, bus h just wouldn’t give in.  If any of her clients gave her money, she gave it straight to charity.

So I want this place to be in her name – to be a remembrance for her, and anyone who goes there for help will get it – free.  They will be able to stay free and be fed and helped for nothing.  There will be a staff of therapists there to help people and tow sections for guests – those who need help and those helpers who come to rest and to develop their skills.

I plan on the place making enough money to get by from donations , from running courses for those who can pay, and perhaps from having residential treatment where people who genuinely CAN afford it, can pay.

The whole place will run on renewable energy – solar, wind etc. and grow its own food.  I’m planning to use some of my ideas to make sure we can sell some electricity back to the power companies as well.

So: 4 parts, maybe 5:

Sanctuary and study hall for therapists and would be therapists
A place for those who need help and can’t afford to pay.
A residential “clinic” for those who genuinely can pay and are willing to contribute
If there is enough space, a couple of outbuildings where research and development of renewable energy devices can go on – like the solar powered hydrogen cookers I was trying to develop for the slums of India, where people live in the gutters and cannot afford the means to cook so they cook on open fires of garbage and old tires - thoroughly poisoning the environment and themselves with carcinogens – that’s what I was doing in India when I lost my company and my home.

And the fifth part?
Well, I’m afraid that’s a little selfish on my part - I’m kind of hoping I can get a room there to live in.  This is a second hand caravan and they will throw it off the site in a year or so because it is too old and too tattered – it looks untidy so in a year or two I am going to be homeless again.

I have given a lot to this world and the people living on it, and If I say so myself I helped a lot pf people change their lives when I was working fulltime as a therapist  most of them for little or no money – people who could never have afforded the cost of the average therapist.

Just because they didn’t have money, doesn’t mean they didn’t need help.  If anything, they need help a lot more but seldom get it. My usual fee was that they promise that during the next 12 months, they would find 3 people who needed help and help them, on the condition that they would do the same for the same price, in the hope that there would be a continuing effect; I’m not daft enough to think they all did it, but if just some of them did, perhaps a good number of people benefited.
I suppose now I am hoping that maybe its time for what goes around to come around, so I can go on helping.  I certainly can’t fund this by myself.

So that’s it, basically, I want to make a place where anyone who needs help can come and get it – where no one is turned away, and especially a place where those who help others - not for money; not for fame but because its the right thing to do, can come and rest and get the same help and support that they give others.  A place where those who wish to help can come and learn and those who already work I this field can exchange knowledge and learn new skills.

Oh yes, and I would really like to make my home in this place so I can go on doing what I love for the rest of my life in peace.

I am an ardent animal lover and if I can find the space, there will be a home here for all animals in need of rescuing, as well as for people in need of rescuing  shelter.

I have no prejudices that I know of other than against warmongers, bullies and anyone who would hurt another living being.